Wow.. Christmas is over.
Its been an interesting couple of days. Christmas Eve, Michael and I went to church ( and met Melanie there who had never been to our church) and then went home to our new tradition of a Chik Fil A tray of nuggets and strips. We also watched another Christmas movie as I was trying to squeeze in every Christmas movie I owned before Christmas.
Christmas Day was started with our traditional breakfast at Waffle House followed by gift opening and some resting. We ended the day with dinner with my FIL in Douglasville.
My thoughts this Christmas was strange. Gift wise?? It rocked.I got more than I asked for and hubby loaded me up with new scrubs,cds, dvds and luggage for our trip to China.
As we opened our gifts, I just felt sad. Was it because our LynnMarie was celebrating her first Christmas without us? I am sure that's part of it. I felt as though I had become part of the commercialized Christmas. I am spoiled. I got everything I wanted. I was still missing something. I missed the basics of Chrismas. Celebrating the birth of the one who changed my life. How do I not celebrate that every single day. I missed being with family. I am just tired of wanting more. But at the same time, I just don't feel like I am living my full potential. I think I am in some kind of rut and I hope I get out of it soon.
I hope 2009 allows me to live more simply to give more. I think that will make me happier. God has blessed me far more than what I deserve.
Even though those thoughts were a bit sad, if they happen to help change me this year, 2008 will have been one of my best Christmas's.
But dang, 2009 is going to rock!!!
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I so hope your 2009 is one of the best, and that LynnMarie will get here soon. Christmas is in your heart, the over commercialization unfortunately is part of it but in a different way, the beauty of it is that you can do without the gifts and the hoopla buy you can't do withouth the real reason for the season.
I can relate to the Christmas letdown, I've felt it too. But, as you said yourself, just wait and see how you feel at Christmas time next year! (And I can't wait to read about it.)
2009 IS going to rock!
Sometimes celebrations ARE bittersweet. But we can be better when we reflect in these ways, in my opinion. I'm praying for you all and am excited to see what 2009 brings.
Hugs,
Susan
2009 will be a much simpler year for you - there will be 1 item that will demand ALL your attention - LynnMarie. JMei has truly taught me that 'It's not about me.' So, in it's own twisted sort of way, my life has become simpler.
Love you 3,
Don
2009 will be a huge turning point! It's amazing how you desire stinky diapers when you don't have them and want what is in them so much :)
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