Amy . . .

What would you like to know? I am fun, but crazy. I have a most perfect husband, and 2 cats named Samson and Delilah. We are presently working on adopting a little girl from China and have a separate blog for that. I am a Christian and am working on a better relationship with him. I live in the Atlanta area and love sharing stories with people. I am also a pediatric nurse and I love it! I love to talk and meet new people and I love Disney Cruising

Monday, January 12, 2009

waiting comfortably

I was thinking the other day. really, I was. I was thinking how comfortable I got during our wait for LynnMarie. Knowing that I had years to go, I didn't really do much to get ready. I almost put it the back of my mind. Almost like it wasn't going to happen.

But then, we got the phone call and it shook my world. The way that I think has changed. Some of my thoughts are a bit less selfish. I do feel like I have wasted some time. I should have done more during the wait. It was a wonderful opportunity to do some great things, and I missed a great opportunity.

This led to my thinking about my God and how comfortable I am right now. The way I am. I want to change but I don't want the process of change.I fear change. Does that make sense?? I don't want change to be uncomfortable. I know that in order to grow and change, sometimes it gets uncomfortable. I think that God sometimes allows change to change us and we have to be willing to go with the flow and trust that He knows whats going on.

SO I hope that in the next few months and as LynnMarie comes home, my fear of change will lessen. I pray that God helps me use my time wisely to become the mom and wife He created me to be.

Things are happening. Good things with a lot of surprises.

I don't want to waste my time and I don't want to miss an opportunity.


Annie said...

What a great reminder not to get so comfortable that we are striving for God's best. Thank you!

Jose said...

When LynnMarie comes change will be for the better. Therefore don't fear it embrace it. Don't try too hard to change, just let it take its natural course.

ChupieandJ'smama said...

Any change can be scary even if it's one we've dreamed of all our lives. Sometimes I think that because of that fear, we can tend to sabotage ourselves along the way or become complacent.
When the baby comes, the change will be natural. It will just happen and you will love it.
And as for the other change you crave, just take baby steps.

Susan said...

This gave me a little tear in my eye! You're right we do sometimes get way too comfortable. I love what I am sensing God doing in and through you via your blog! It's a blessing even watching from afar.



Jamie said...

I'm right there with you...if you want to read a GREAT book on change and being uncomfortable for the sake of the kingdom, I HIGHLY recommend Crazy Love by Francis Chan. It shook me up. (in a good way) :)

Natalia said...

Embrace change, change is good! :)

Kate said...

Boy, did I really need to read this today! Thank you so much for sharing. God is good...all the time!!!

Frazzled Farm Wife said...

Your fear of change will become less because with a new little one in the house, every day will be something new and things will be changing all the time....but it's all good!