I have to be honest. I have been fighting Satan for a while. I do think he is trying to rob me from my joy and steal my peace. I have just been worrying lately ALL of the time. I have been worrying about things I can not control and its consuming my thoughts.
The adoption-not worried at all. Beyond thrilled to get LynnMarie in my arms.
I guess I feel inadequate. I am not giving 100% again and I am not glorifying God in all I do, and yes that is my goal. I have not been good at eating, I could be exercising more, I could focus on cleaning on home and getting more organized. These are the things I need and want to do but instead I do whats comfortable. I want to be a better friend. I have been blessed by many friends who have just been so generous lately.
I miss my quiet time with God. I have not been having it and I really miss it. I miss moments where He just speaks to me. I am just not quiet anymore. I miss that intimate relationship that He desires so much. I miss spending time in His word because I always learn when I am studying.
I fear. I fear a lot of things and that takes away peace. I fear the world we live in. I fear some of the decisions the President has already made. I fear sharing my opinion. I fear what others can do to our country. I fear those of us who are believers not taking a stand for what we believe in. I fear not being satisfied with what I have. I fear not having these feelings. I fear not giving. I fear making decisions based on what is comfortable and not what God desires of me, even when it is heavy on my mind.
Nope. I am not depressed. Just sorting out some feelings and emotions.
Anyone else feel like this?Because apparently admitting you have a problem is the first step to recovery.
Amy . . .
What would you like to know? I am fun, but crazy. I have a most perfect husband, and 2 cats named Samson and Delilah. We are presently working on adopting a little girl from China and have a separate blog for that. I am a Christian and am working on a better relationship with him. I live in the Atlanta area and love sharing stories with people. I am also a pediatric nurse and I love it! I love to talk and meet new people and I love Disney Cruising