So, its 2:33 a.m here at Scottish Rite and I have checked my children. They are really sleeping. Its calm and when its calm I start to think.
I love love love meeting new people which is why I so enjoyed the blog party and I hope to see some of those great people again. I hope some of them become great friends.
Do you ever just feel like you are not worthy? Worthy for friendship? you guys know that I struggle with jealousy. I meet so many people who I think are better than me. Some of those people help me want to be a better person. For that I am thankful. But there is still a part of me who knows I will never be good enough to be a friend of some people. I hate that I think like that. Its just part of who I have always been. I am working on this......I know that no one has it all together and the face that we are all different makes this world a sweeter place.
I am not the best friend to have. I love getting together with friends whether its walking or having lunch. I rarely invite anyone to do anything for a variety of reasons.
a) I hate people turning me down. Even if its a real excuse, I automatically take it personally. I really take a lot of things personally.
b) I don't like to call people because I really do not want to interrupt people during their personal time. Especially friends with kids, I am always afraid I am goin to wake someone up.
I know excuses excuses
Anyway, I hope to be a better friend in the next year. I have learned what amazing friends I have and that is scary. I actually have friends that I trust. I have friends that have demonstrated such love through gifts, words, time and prayers. I am beyond blessed. And then there are my blogging friends who have encouraged me through the blog and I hope to meet so many of you one day....
Still working on my address book for Christmas. regardless if you are a friend in my online world or not, I want to get your address..
Friends, Christmas is in the air and if you can remember last season, I am a Christmas girl.
There will be a lot of blogging in December..
Amy . . .
What would you like to know? I am fun, but crazy. I have a most perfect husband, and 2 cats named Samson and Delilah. We are presently working on adopting a little girl from China and have a separate blog for that. I am a Christian and am working on a better relationship with him. I live in the Atlanta area and love sharing stories with people. I am also a pediatric nurse and I love it! I love to talk and meet new people and I love Disney Cruising