My heart hurts. This evening, I was able to spend a few minutes with my sweet patient and her family. They had so much support but I am glad I was able to spend a few minutes with them. I left in tears. I knew this night would change the dynamics of this family forever. I will cherish every word I heard in that room. We talked about memories and other nurses in the hospital
Early Early this morning, the ICU nurses called me to tell me my sweet sweet patient passed away.
I almost got angry. Truly angry. Never has death angered me but it almost got me. My sweet sweet patient whom I met 3 years ago met Jesus tonight. Her parents had to leave and spend their first night away from her. Oh how I pray they found rest. Mom is having baby number 2 in just 9 days. My sweet patient never got to meet her new brother or sister.
As you can tell, I have been emotional about this. As a pediatric nurse, I have never had to face the loss of a patient while at work. I am probably still in shock as I am still expecting to see this family every few months for a treatment. It hit me that this was final. As I said goodbye to this family, it was a door closing. For 3 years, I have looked forward to visiting this patient and seeing how well she was doing. There won't be anymore visits.
I spent time with the ICU nurses who cared for her before and after death as well as her doctor and the chaplain. As horrible as losing her is, it truly was a beautiful moment and I would have been devastated if I had missed tonight. This family was faithful, they were prayer warriors. They loved everyone. Cancer sucks! Brain tumors suck! Enough said.
Rarely do I share stories from work. Rarely do I get close to a family like I have over the past 3 years. Please pray for this family. Pray for comfort and joy as they plan the funeral of one daughter and prepare for the birth of a new child in just a few days.
Amy . . .
What would you like to know? I am fun, but crazy. I have a most perfect husband, and 2 cats named Samson and Delilah. We are presently working on adopting a little girl from China and have a separate blog for that. I am a Christian and am working on a better relationship with him. I live in the Atlanta area and love sharing stories with people. I am also a pediatric nurse and I love it! I love to talk and meet new people and I love Disney Cruising