Amy . . .

What would you like to know? I am fun, but crazy. I have a most perfect husband, and 2 cats named Samson and Delilah. We are presently working on adopting a little girl from China and have a separate blog for that. I am a Christian and am working on a better relationship with him. I live in the Atlanta area and love sharing stories with people. I am also a pediatric nurse and I love it! I love to talk and meet new people and I love Disney Cruising

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Happy Happy Joy Joy (haha)

Lucy has been gone over a week and I still cry. Not as much, but I do. I walked in the house a few days ago and put the trash can on the table so Lucy would not get it. I woke up from my nap listening for her barking as she could always tell I was awake. I really miss her. Lucy was spoiled.
I am not sure but I think when you are human childless, you build up this love and you just want to share it. That's probably why I adore my nieces and nephews and why I loved my Lucy. Lucy got a new boney (bone) every time I went to the store. She loved doggie day care and had some cool friends there. She loved it when you put a blanket on you and she would jump on it. I loved her ears and if you scratched them the right way, she would make this funny noise

This is not a Lucy blog but more of my random thoughts. Lucy was our friend. Do you know sometimes when you hear the same thing over and over and over and then there is one time you hear it differently? Well I have been hearing and studying the fact that happiness is based on circumstances and that joy goes much deeper than that. I am not going to allow circumstances steal my joy. Lots of things I do not like will happen in my life. But I have to have faith that God knows the whole picture and what I am not seeing is that it will all work out in the end. I am sure of this. Lots of sad stuff has been going on. Lots of things are stressing me out. If you know me, then you know I am a bit paranoid and I worry about everything. But my God gives me a sense of peace that truly can only come from him and my joy is pretty deep.

I am starting to think that Lucy was placed in our lives so I could shower her with love as we wait for LynnMarie to come home. I am thankful we had her for almost 2 and half years. She definitely has a permanent place in my heart.

Thanks to Tymm and Laura and Don and Be for the encouraging cards and to all my blogging friends who sent emails. We both appreciate them and are thankful to know others know how we felt.

10 comments:

Tymm said...

Every single day gets a little bit easier. I still get sad almost 6 years later when I think of my main man Sandler - but I have replaced that agony with the great memories of him.

It sounds like you have a lot of great Lucy memories - hang on to those - they are like little bursts of joy bubbles.

Jose said...

Awwww! Sorry to hear about Lucy. I am not a pet person and thank people like you that have the ability to love and care pets. I really liked the picture of Lucy with the Christmas antlers.

Beverly said...

I know how you feel. I had to put a cat down 12 years ago and thinking about it makes me cry still. So although the pain will be there you will be able to still be joyful and on occassion, happy!!

Come back to Memphis anytime!!

Beverly

kailani said...

Pets are a part of the family and it's totally understandable for you to feel grief. Hopefully, love and support will help you through this difficult time.

Pam and Jeff said...

Some people say "you will always have memories." At about this time in my grief over my babydog, I was kind of getting that. At the time, I just wanted my baby back-not memories!! Now, I do like to look at all those special times. As each day goes by, you will think of Lucy but it will be all those happy times.
Isn't the wait just wild? It is so neat to go through things and know that is part of God's master plan. For example, there were three things in the beginning of the year that I knew we were facing-losing our dog, getting a new car and Jeff paying some business bills paid off. It is June. Beau died. (We were worried when we went to China who would watch him.) I was rearended. I had to get rid of my car that I did not want to part with because it was paid for. (I was able to buy a Civic hybrid in Marfor a good price and they paid me for my other car. Now, I don't worry about gas prices. I also have my car when Julia gets here) Jeff paying his business bills off. (He was able to pay everything but $1,000 in one month.) God's timing is amazing!!!

LINDA said...

I empathize with your situation. We, too, have lost beloved pets. They are NOT just like members of the family. They ARE members of the family---never to be forgotten, never to be replaced....You keep loving Lucy. She will be waiting for you on the other side and she will again make that funny sound when you rub her ears. She will be just as anxious to see you as you are to see her. This is only a reminder that nothing in life is permanent and that we should rejoice every day in our good fortune nad thank God for the good things......

Annie said...

It's hard to lose a friend and takes time to heal.

Fliss and Mike Adventures said...

You will still cry for a while... in time... it will be happy memories though you will always miss her... take care

mommy24treasures said...

oh I am so sorry for your loss. I know Lucy must have been VERY special.

Bella's mama said...

I was so sorry to read about Lucy. I know this time is hard~ You are in my thoughts!!!