Tonight I will go in for my 3rd night in a row and although its been a pretty easy weekend, its been emotionally draining. In my 7 years at CHOA, I had to do something I have never done before nor do I ever want to do it again. Ok, I am warning you, sad post ahead.
I had a patient, I shall call her "C"who was admitted for a brain tumor. Newly diagnosed. All this family knew was it was in her head and were hanging out for diagnosis and observation.
She had an MRI and we were waiting results. Dr. Reisner, my favorite doctor and neurosurgeon patted my shoulder and said 'Amy, its bad, really bad." Be prepared. This is another wonderful family." Dr. Reisner is an awesome, honest doctor and I did not know what to do with this info. Usually, its a day shift thing. Mom was at Walmart when Dr. Reisner came to talk and he talked to dad. He let dad know the tumor was inoperable and on her brain stem and that the oncology doctors would talk with him tomorrow. Dr. Reisner asked me to call the chaplain and then he had to go into surgery.
Mom and her sister came back from the store and we found a quiet place to talk. The chaplain asked me to go in with her and I immediately started praying. Dad told mom but was not clear at all, so I had to step in and explain them. Thank God for chaplains. I truly felt like I was having an out of body experience. So, I had to explain exactly what the Dr told me in a room. You have to know that mom is due to deliver baby number 5 any day now so I had that on top of everything. We sat in this room with the family while the chaplain prayed. I could only tell them exactly what the doctor told them but also wanted so badly to give them some hope but didn't want to give them any false hope. I listened to mom cry out "Are you giving me this new baby to make my goodbye easier"? I wish I was making this up. I am so glad I am working 3 days in a row so I could get to know this family and little girl. Their family was forever changed the other day.
Sunday afternoon, they learned the tumor is one of the worse you can have and that even with radiation they are looking at a year or two at the most. It is surreal. Please pray for this family and their support system. Mom needs to give birth this week so they can make plans for treatment and other decisions.
God is good. I want them to see that. I wish I could have done more.
Amy . . .
What would you like to know? I am fun, but crazy. I have a most perfect husband, and 2 cats named Samson and Delilah. We are presently working on adopting a little girl from China and have a separate blog for that. I am a Christian and am working on a better relationship with him. I live in the Atlanta area and love sharing stories with people. I am also a pediatric nurse and I love it! I love to talk and meet new people and I love Disney Cruising