Guilt

It does not take long for me to feel guilty, about anything. If I call in to work, I am mentally miserable. This was especially true Sunday. Sunday morning we got up and decided on a church to visit. I am desperate to find a home church before we get back from China and I want to be involved. It started at 11am. We walked in at 11:02 and missed the announcements but nothing else really. It was packed and we quickly found a seat. When its the crowded and we are not that early, I am mentally gone (see 2 posts below). My heart is racing and paranoia sets in. Plus another thing was it was Communion Sunday. Guys and gals, my heart was not in it. Satan won. I sooo wanted to enjoy the service and meet new people, but it did not happen..

Will we ever find a church we both love?

any answers would be greatly appreciated

and just to clarify my post below, I am thrilled for Valfrey. Who is Valfrey? Well, its Jeff and Val. DUring their courtship, a family member gave them the name since there was Benifer and Brangelina... I think its cute. They have been married 4 months and their marital journey continues. I am sad that we didnt get much time to hang out with them but it will be awesome to hear what God is doing in their family. Rock on Jeff and Val!